shaun

i'm in toronto tonight, far from my beloved shaun. this used to be a way of life for us, but for nine months now, i've been lucky enough to share my days and nights with him. so it's strange to be here, without him. 

i do love being independent and having my own things going on, but i also really like knowing that we are in this together. as much as i talk smack about him, the truth is that i love him more than my words could ever say. he is good for me; i am good for him. we make a good team.

i like to think that people come into our lives to leave a mark. sometimes it's for only a season, and then we move on, somehow changed. and others come along for a lifetime to build a support and to propel us toward our own personal greatness. i can honestly say of most people i know that they have either changed me, my ways of being, or my views in some way, big or small. i don't regret any friendships or any relationships, no matter how crummy. and i think shaun came along at a time when i was ready to "begin" my life.

he doesn't put up with my ruminations of the past or my self doubt or self pity. he correctly labels my issues as "retardations," which makes me see my stupid insecurities for what they really are. and she makes me want to be a better me.

enough said.