i don't want to blog today, but i will anyway.

as you can probably tell from my last few blogs, i'm in a weird head space. not entirely unhappy, but certainly not at my best. i think it's a combination of things: missing home and family and friends, stress, need of a vacation, and general frustration.

i have a plan for some of these things including a trip home early April and some life changes when i return. i have a lot of baggage to either unpack and put away or eliminate altogether. the last few years have been some of the roughest, and i guess it's just time to deal with it all. these things have a way of not just disappearing, no matter hard i try to pretend they aren't there...

for now, i will give myself time to just sit in life's mess and allow time to pass by...